Japan Drama , me and a depressed day

I like to watch Japan drama. Currently a Japan drama, 求爱大作战 is shown in 8TV。 It is about a young guy who saw his lover getting married in a church. The girl is his friend since they are very young. The guy is so regret that he has not confess to the girl, he has no courage to do so. Now, he is giving chances to amend what he has done is wrong in the past. For every photo that is shown during the wedding (old photos that took in the past shown in the wedding is a norm in asia), he will be given a chance by to back to the past. However, the guy still not able to win back the girl heart and marry her.
I am really angry with this guy as he always think he has a lot of chance to confess. I also think he is a coward as even a little thing like confession, he failed to do so even given a second chance.
Today, I realized I am no different with him. This is why I want to write it in this hair loss blog.
I fond of a girl which is my colleague quite some time. I knew here for several years but then she broken up one year back and I get to know it almost a year back. I have been very slow to court her. In fact, she has a lot of guys after her as she looks quite attractive. Unfortunately I only noticed she kind of give me a chance just a month before she left to Japan for over half year
Today, my colleague who just back from Japan and met her several times told during our lunch that a guy who is Malaysian court her. The guys come form Osaka to Nagoya just to spend whole day with her every week. Moreover, summer holiday next week will be a very good chance for the guy to get closer with her.
I am so depressed. She give the guy a chance to meet her every week. She let the guys sent her back by letting my colleague to go back separately although my colleague can not speak a word of Japanese.
The guys is lucky, I wish I can spend the summer in oversea with her. Now, I can't even see her in MSN. Even I saw her, she not so keen to talk to me like previously.
It seem like I have to look for another girl. Oh, God, when can I get a girl friend? I am sincerely a nice guy. Just may be a bit shy. I just want to wait her back and confess to her, and have a very romantic Christmas eve. Now, I will be alone and have a lonely Christmas.
What is all the above story related to hair loss. Yes, I feel depressed now and for sure, this month I will loss more hair than usual.

Theme song of 求爱大作战 by 桑田佳佑