Oh my God, I have hair loss problem!!

I never thought I will be bald one day 10 years ago. I have full of hair. When some of my friends in the school complaint that they have some white hair grows already. They said” So good, why you don’t have single strand of white hair?”. I am quite proud of my hair. However, I never get to know how hair will have a big impact of someone look. I never dye my hair or using gel to my hair. Anyway, it is good enough to attract some girls in my school.
Things have change frequent fast. I found that I have some M shape frontal hair 5 years ago. That kind I have my hair cut and the barber told me I have no hair at my left frontal. It is a small spot. The hair there is obviously lesser. I curious why I never notice that. But to be true, my hair drops has been always more than others people. But I tend to think the hair I grow also more than other people, so it is a net net effect (I drops more hair, but grow more hair as well).
Now I know, my male pattern hair loss has started long time ago. I blamed my hair loss to dandruff alone is not correct although it contributes part of my hair loss.
Everything happen so fast until I have no preparation to face my problem. The hair that I use to think is too thick and need Rejoice conditioner to soften my hair suddenly seem weak and thinning.
Start from that day, I felt deep in my heart, full of hair person is so handsome, even their face is not so. Bald people will be less attractive even they have a good look.
My confident is taken a big blow one day. Some female colleague who were taken their lunch together, somehow talk about the man baldness. They joking of me that my frontal is a bit of M shape. Although I knew it was true, but the feeling is really sad. Being an item of joking is one thing, being less attractive to opposite sex really piss me off. I have no girl friend. My lack of confident of my look really jeopardizes my chance to meet girl. My social circle is affected by my look. My self esteem is once sky high is totally changed.
I still date some of the girls once a while but seldom go beyond of 2nd date. I would say, over 50% is finish in the first date. Girls nowadays also care of men looks a lot. If your look is not attractive, the chance you will get a 2nd date is very low.
I can’t be stylish. I wish to. But I can dye my hair. I can’t gel my hair. Please tell me if any hair style that is looks good if you don’t have a lot of hair on top. Certainly not! The best is I try to cover my ‘M-shape’ fontal with longer hair. But for those sit in front of you of half an hour surely will notice my hairstyle is a bit weird. Right!I try to cover my flaw..OK!
After some sour and bitter experiences with girls, I decided, leaving my hair loss continue will not help me. I tried topical treatment which is Chinese herbal traditional treatment (see the September archive- Yun Nam cheat my money)which end up only cheating my money and no hair grow. Finally Propecia is my only last hope.
If Propecia is also not working for me, I really don’t know what is the next step. However, before I can taste the fruits, I have been suffered of sides effect….